the signs are already there. but i was so delusional that i couldnt see.
maybe i was blinded by it you know? i thought it was there between us.
but i still just dont get it why did you treated me like we were something.
you know that i have feelings for you. you told me not to put so much hopes on me,
but why did you gave me hopes?

i dont think youre heartless and selfish. but at this moment, i just dont get you.

my new year's celebration was pretty straightedge. i didnt go to any mall or dip my twinkie at any clubs or pubs.
you know im a very laid back person, i dont like noises and crowded places! so my friend had a bbq party and though i was the only underage ( the others are aged 21 and me sorang je 17), it wasnt bad at all. it was fun, EVENTHOUGH those assclowns tried to take off my pants and my sister didnt even trying to stop them, instead she was laughing with them.
but PRAISE BE TO ALLAH!, i have the strength to fight back! so my jeans were safe that night and could continue eating the chickens.
due to some certain (satan) reason, i couldnt celebrate with my homies! it would be great if i could celebrate with all my great friends, from all groups, such as The Usual (Sarah, Rohit, Suraya, Fen, Moraish), The Legacy ( Kam Jam and Shaf), Gang Gangster ( Jyun, Tarrence, Pravin, Joseph) and the last but not least... i dont have a name for them yet.. hrmm how about Pretty Mean Sisters? PMS? HAHA (Farfar, Sue, Liena, Myra)
well nothing much to say actually. a new year is a new journey. so all the best and good luck and remember to wear your seatbelt people.